busy, busy, busy

     On one note, I apologize for being away so long. It's been stressful these past couple of days.  Chris and I have been house searching. As of last night, we think we may have found our house :) ! Keeping our fingers crossed, but not getting too excited yet. I'm hoping for the best.  I don't think I had mentioned this in my last post, but I bought myself a car. FINALLY. It's a 2003 Ford Focus. I got an amzing deal on it. Chris has one car, and I have a car. This was a major check off our short-term goals list. Buying a house is next. 

   Elizabeth and I took a trip to Tj Maxx which has become one of my favorite stores. She loves it too :) , well the toy aisle anyways :p

first time @ the park

    Elizabeth went to the park for the first time today. It was a beautiful day. The weather was extremely pleasant and the sun was shining bright. When we got there, there were only a few other kids there so we pretty much had it to ourselves.

      Watching her sit in the "baby swing" that was 3 sizes too big was quite entertaining. We could have put another baby in there with her and it would still feel comfortable. She liked the swinging at first, but grew tired of it soon after. Once she gets older.... I kept thinking to myself.

       There were two little boys there. One who looked no older than two or three and the other one had not been walking for more than 2 months. They were running and playing and climbing all over the place. It just amazes me how quickly babies turn into kids. It won't be too much longer where she will be moving onto the "big kid" swing, and won't even need me to push her. I'm so anxious to see how she will be a year from now, but at the same time I want her to stay the little girl she is now.

playtime @ gigi's house

      I've been kind of lazy at blogging these past couple of days, but not to worry! I have lots of footage from my absence.


I'm starting to wonder what color her eyes will be. Sometimes they look blue and other times they look hazel, like her daddy's.






She loves to play with her blocks. Everyday I have to constantly drain the DNA that she has left on all sides of these colorful dice.

time flies. fast.

     It still feels like we only just left the hospital. The day I was discharged also happened to be Mother's Day. It was supposed to be an exciting day. I was mostly upset. I wanted her back in my belly so badly. Being pregnant had become my identity and now I had a baby. I had to find myself again. And I did. 

      But today those feelings started to come back. I looked at Elizabeth this morning, and the somber thoughts returned. Not that I wanted her back in my belly, but that she's becoming her own person. She's growing up incredibly fast. She turned 5 months old today. It's truly amazing to watch her thrive. I love her so much. She is my heart. My whole heart. 

scrub a dub dub in a.....sink

          Elizabeth and I took a trip to her great grandmother's (my grandmother) house this past Friday. While we were there, Elizabeth thoroughly enjoyed her first sink bath. It was as if the sink was made to be her size. 


          As with all of her "firsts", I try to catch it on camera, but the only thing close to a smile I got was this. It was a kind of  "hmmm...this is new-and slightly awkward-but this water feels oh so good-look".

rinky dinky thunderstorm vs. hurricane irene

          Who would have guessed that flooding would be a bigger threat during a storm than a whirling twirling hurricane. I sure didn't. A pretty severe thunderstorm went through our area last night. The weather station reported more than 1200+ lightning bolts in just an hour's time. Driving home last night after a long day at my grandmother's house, I receive a phone call from Chris saying  that his car was stuck in waist-deep water. What I wanted to say was "You are such an idiot to even think your Isuzu Rodeo could even make it through that." Instead I was sympathetic. A block away from home and he gets his car stuck in water. I ended up turning around and stayed at my grandmother's house until the water went down. Currently, Chris is outside trying to see if his Isuzu will work again. It looks grim. We had plans to buy a house soon. And today it seems as though it's not going to happen. It really makes me sad. I only hope there is a miracle with his vehicle so that he doesn't have to buy a new one.

(A glimpse of the lightning-weatherchannel.com)

september marks one year

        My anxiety seems to be at an all time high these days. Chris, myself and our daughter, Elizabeth, are still living at his parent's house. It's been one year since I moved in and one year since I've wanted to move out. One year since I found out I was pregnant at 17 and one year since I realized my life would never be the same. I want change. I crave it. I long for it. We are hoping to buy a house soon. Almost have the 15% for a down payment. It just seems as if we are never going to have our own life. With Elizabeth being almost 5 months old, she's going to start getting mobile soon and at his parent's house, we just don't have the room for it.